Father figure

Today like most days is a reminder of the things our family is without now that will has left. However as I sit here and watch all these families interact with each other , I watch these dads be so interactive , having just as much fun as their kids and I'm reminded that my kids never had that to begin with. I had to fight with Will , almost force him to get "down" and play with his kids, to be an interactive involved parent. So I guess they can't miss something they never had, despite knowing Keelie seeks it , she sees it all around her, I hope it isn't something that hurts her inside. Ill never understand why our life has become this, someday I swear ill stop asking why. Deklan's utter excitement today just makes it hurt more that people would choose not to be in his and Keelie's lives. They are 2 amazing kids , luckily I get to be there for every bit of it.