MY life....

To all of those who feel its their right to talk behind my back about the situation my family is in maybe you should get your facts straight. I DIDN'T choose any of this. I didn't choose for him to abandon our family, to walk out and refuse to pay bills after 10 years together, to leave me with the only option of legal action to provide for my kids and pay the mortgage. I can't force him to pay for his motorcycle that is now being reposed. I can't force him to be a dad to his kids, a husband to me and to own up to his responsibilities . He walked away and decided a motorcycle club and the new life he started was worth more then us. He forced me to go back to work full time, to stress over every bill,groceries and way of life we used to have. He bought himself a new cell phone and left me to pay for his old one, he bought a new $26,000 bike and stopped paying for the $12,000 one siting in my garage. He comes around and ruins any progress we have made at moving on and does this when its continent to him..... I became a single parent over night. I'm raising my children 24/7 without a father because he wants nothing to do with us. Don't get me wrong I love those children more then life itself and I wouldn't give an hour away from them for anything.  If I had any power over what my life has become it wouldn't be this way. But I DON'T . So before you decide to judge me, alienate my children , and talk as if you have any right to do so ,do get one fact in your head. I DIDN'T CHOOSE THIS, and I NEVER would have chosen this, nor would I ever ask anyone to be a part of this. I fought like hell the last 2 years as I continue to fight now and will always fight for my marriage and my family. But I can't control another persons choices or actions. If you also have a problem with me putting MY business out there then please do me the favor and go the hell away. You aren't the ones living in MY shoes going through the roller coaster of hell our life has become. You don't have to make the daily decisions that are best for my kids, you don't have to listen  to my daughter ask over and over why our family is "broken", and explain without hurting her more. My kids have had their hearts broken by that entire family. So until your in that position, until you have to fight the battles I'm fighting, think for one minute about someone other then yourself. I also don't want anyone feeling sorry for us. It is what it is and someway somehow life goes on.. So far we are doing a pretty good job at it.